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 There are days when life suddenly jolts you awake,

 not with a tragedy,

 but with a quiet, terrifying clarity...

 I've drifted too far from the person I was supposed to become.

 Today is that day for me.

 I kept walking towards a future

 that was never walking towards me.

 And the worst part?

 I knew it.

 

 So I kept holding on to possibilities,

 that were never promised,

 to moments that felt honest but had no direction.

 

 And today, suddenly I felt the collapse.

 Like a string pulled too tight for too long.

 I realized I was exhausting myself,

 So I'm stepping out.

 Not because I don't feel anything,

 But because I feel too much.

 Too deeply.

 Too dangerously.

 It was nothing but a beautifully decorated cage I willingly stepped into.

 It doesn't trap me.

 It just keeps me circling around something that is never meant for me.

 Today, for the first time, I want to choose myself.

 Not out of strength but out of exhaustion.

 Although am an atheist yet I find myself silently wishing for a small miracle.

 the courage to walk out of my own labyrinth,

 to free myself from the stories my mind keeps replaying.

 

 My life is not meant to be lived in emotional extremes.

 I drifted so far into my own desires that I forgot the responsibilities,

 waiting at my doorstep......

 

Maybe even my panchii won't realise it now.

But somewhere in the quiet architecture of destiny,

I feel a doorway waiting....

a moment in some distant year.

where what I crave for so silently today,

will finally stand beside me,

without fear, without hiding,

and for a very long time then.....

perhaps even forever, where six seconds will become sixty years....

                        

                                                                                           - Tanu ki kalam se....